Different Kinds of Discriminations

  We are all different from the head to the feet. Our appearance, personality, height, weight, hobby,,
there are no people who has the same things with the others! Of course, twins can be but even, their personalities are different.. There's no same thing but the similarities. Because of this, we sometimes argue, fight, even discriminate. Then, what kinds of discrimination are there? There are many kinds of discrimination but I will confine in school because I am a student and I experienced it.
   First, Discrimination because of his physical weakness. I thinks this is the most common. When I was in elementary school, there were always bullyed, discriminated students. They had the same things. It is their HABITS. For example, when I was grade 2, there was a boy(I can't tell him as a my friend..) who used to eat runny nose. Sometimes, when we get a cold, we swallow runny nose so that we can breathe. But he was different. First, he blew his nose in order that runny nose can comes out.
Second, He blew his nose more so that it can reach to mouth through philtrum. At last, he ate it! I was really shocked at that time.. I thought that is what crazy person could do! He was not crazy at all. He was not bad student.. except eating it..  Because of that habit, he was discriminated until 14? more than that? although he quit eating it.
   Second, Finance. Of course, because life is not fair, there is a poor and rich. Usually, rich people can easily buy something expensive, and new. It can be a trend among group that he is in, and he show off to his friends, classmates. However, poor cannot buy those stuff because they should save the money. Then, they can't buy those although most of his friends or classmates have. I don't know why but people tend to ignore poor. So they usually ignore them. When it becomes severe, they discriminate people.. Actually, I was one of them.. When I was young, it was really popular to have a pencil case that has games such as basketball game, pinball and even electronic games. These were expensive compare to usual ones. Usual ones were about P100? but those had games were about P300~400. It is expensive till now. I made up my mind not to buy it because I thought it was not necessary! But, my friends started to buy it and it was rare not to have that kinds of pencil case. Although it was, I didn't buy it until my friends said ' why you don't have this pencil case? Are you a poor?' and stated to discriminated those who didn't have games pencil case. I was shocked... I had't thought that those who doesn't have game pencil case are poor. I was afraid of being discriminated so I bought it... I could watch them who didn't have it being discriminated.. ' He doesn't have this! He is probably poor.. Let us not play with him.' This was totally bullshit.. 
  The last, study. People who are good at studying tend to ignore who are not. To be honest, I did as well when I taught math to my friends who were my good  friends. I didn't mean but I said 'Don't you know this question? It is easy!!!' Something like this.. I said it unintentionally!! Fortunately, they told me that I tend to ignore them. And I realized that this is really super duper horrible thing that ignore people.. From then on, I have tried not to repeat again..
  There are the other discriminations that I didn't mention. As you can see, there are so many types of  discrimination. I am trying to not be included in the group of discriminating people. Although it is hard to remove discrimination, we should reduce it step by step.

Regret

 I think we are living with immense regrets.. I can say confidently, I AM YOUNG but there are so many things I regret. I saw My brother, also most of people saying  'Oh... I should have done this..' ' I should NOT have done this..'etc. why do people repeat regretting over and over? Sometime, we commit many regrettable things and mistakes I committed a lot of things that I regret.. It is painful since it hurts me. Nowadays, What I usually regret is that I did not study English from I came here. I played soccer again and again although I suck.. Sometimes, I regret watching porn. After watching it, I used to regret and think 'Why am I looking this kinds of video? Oh shit.. I should have played soccer rather watching it.. oh.. I will not watch porn anymore!' But, after 2 weeks, I can find myself doing the same thing that I did ㅠㅠ This is my problem.. My indecisive attitude causes me to do it again.. Now, I don't watch it anymore.. I am not sure about word 'anymore' but I will try to make it sure. One of things I regret is soccer.. I should have started soccer when I was 11? 12 years old.. At that time, I was playing with my friends, who were my classmates, all day long, We played tag or what we called 'escape' but  we didn't play soccer at all.. I don't know why ... If I played soccer everyday with those who I played with when I was 12, I would be able to, no, would absolutely good at playing soccer. More than 100 times of my present soccer skills? Nowadays, what I regret mainly is my homework.. Last Wednesday, teacher mae said 'if you make a power point(?) about Malcom X, I will give additional points in Long test.' I was supposed to make it but I was not able to find the video file of it.. As you know, My laptop has broken so I could download using any torrents..ayna ko... These are what I have regretted..As I am a human, it is impossible not to make any mistakes and regrets as well.. but I will try not to be happened frequently.. 

P.S I am getting use to say bad words.. I won't use bad words!!

Sorry Jerry!

Prom..

 um,,.. Finally, two days ago, we had a prom that I expected there would be pretty girls... I was so stupid. What I saw was a MOVIE!! Students were all actors, and actress! and, Moreover, in grade 9, there are so few girls, compare to number of boys. its proportion is not balanced. AND, Hanmi  and Lexie didn't come to the prom!! um.. I don't know why they didn't come.. why?? why?? 
  Before I went to Acacia Hotel, I was so nervous.. I don't know why.. but maybe because it was my first time of attending prom? My heartbeat goes up(right expression?). When I went there, I was surprised,, there were so many handsome guys and pretty girls there! I realized that girls absolutely becomes pretty when they get make up.. As well, I realized that clothing makes people handsome or worse. I watched two type of people. One, who is not actually handsome/pretty but became attractive because he/she wore fancy? nice suit and dress, however, the other one, who is quite handsome , pretty but because of suit/dress, he/she didn't look like usual. Our Grade 9 was good in general.
   At first, we ate bread and chicken for appetite. Chicken soup was masarab.. but WAITER DID'T GIVE ME A BREAD!! I was little bit disappointed LOL. After that, next menu was .... I don't know but.. It was beef? pork? with rice. The meat was quite delicious but the problem was rice.. It was mixed with what looked like grass.. Probably herb? To say frankly, IT WAS TERRIBLE.. the rice didn't have any specific flavor but I could smell something that I can't explain.. The good thing was, after that, dish was cheese cake. It was so sweet that I could forget terrible flavor. But I couldn't eat twice.. it was so sweet.. Is my tongue strange?? 
   Next, It was time to present our performance.. Our performance was about singing 'Teenage dream(?)' BUT, Sam suddenly vanished!! so Jerry who knows all lyrics of it performed instead of Sam.. It was really wrong. He is not responsible for it! Anyway, they performed.. but the amplifier... The amplifier was really really problem.. Staff should have placed microphone near to John to be heard clearly! I think teenage dream cannot be played well without playing the guitar.. Because of mistaken, the other audiences would thought 'Is this performance for comedy?' this is exaggeration but.. It was almost like this.Of course, lacking of practice was the problem as well, but they could do well in the prom!! What a shame! Sayang...
   The other performances were not bad actually. Singers were good.. Of course, they were absolutely better than me LOL. and, Upper grade sisters(?) danced.. it was gooood kkkk. We had a dance time for around 10 minutes. Actually, I really not good at dancing (what is what I can do well?? um.. it's the problem ㅠㅠ) yeah but I enjoyed well.. Some of brothers, sisters were really good! and while the others were dancing, grade 9 boys (not all of boys.. sayang!) took a picture with ms.mae.
Highlight? Climax of prom performance was BAND. Their performance was exciting! All of us jumped and shouted although our population was so small.. as well, compare to the room..
   I don't care about king, queen, price, and princess of the prom. Grade 9 was not included.. MY goodness!! 
  After finishing the prom,, I wanted to have more time to enjoy the time with only grade 9.. but before I told them, they already left.. .but It's okay! we have another prom next year.. I hope there will be more pretty girls.. Maybe, girls hope that there will be more handsome boys in next prom LOL

It's me!

HANDSOME GUYS!

6 months

   It has been 6 months since I came here, the Philippines. Time goes by too fast.. I don't feel that I have lived here for 6 MONTHS! This is half - year. So, today, I made up my mind to review(?) what I have done. 
     As, I wrote it on writing 3rd quarter exam, I didn't come here with satisfied agreement. Because of my mother's occupation( now, thanks to my mother) I weren't able to decline it so that I and my brother take advantages by living in Korea. At that time, I really didn't want to come here as I had(until now!) many friends that I became friends with thanks to soccer and the other ways. I adapted school life so much! Although I was in exclusive school(BOY'S ONLY!), I adapted that kinds  of gloomy environment(LOL). Of course, I was not comfortable such as dull atmosphere. But after a year, I could live well? among group of men. Fortunately, I met friends who were  really kind and didn't do bad things such as smoking, drinking.. something like that.. I am appreciating my adviser teachers for not giving me classes that were kinds of bullying students. They used to smoke, drink, and even take the money from us!! But they didn't ask me to give the money. Of course, I would not give any money when they asked me to give it. It is stupid thing! They are just kid. They are not an 17~19!  Anyway,, why is it like this? I mean, I think I could be that kinds of people if I hang out with that kinds of friends. I was a friend many student. I used to play with friends who are bullying people later. So, I trusted them more since they are preserver of my life! Moreover, thanks to soccer, I became more friendly with them as well, I could have many new friends who were(are) so kind and good as well as my formal friends. 
       But, oneday, my mother said ' we will go to the Philippines for your studying. Prepare what you are going to use in there.' I was really surprised.. but soon, I calmed down(?). I had quite long time before I live! Before a month I live, however, I realized that my friends are going to have exam that decide what high school they are going to enroll.. It was really  important exam in the middle school.(Actually, all exams are important) I couldn't say 'I am leaving on November 4th..' since we were grade 3rd, it took a quite percentages.. It can be just my delude but I didn't want to affect them anything related to study. So, after the finishing the last exam of grade 3rd, I played with my friends only half and a day. It was really really super duper sorrow.. I was supposed to visit my school before  I am leaving but I didn't.. I would be um... really .. sad.
     At last, I came the Philippines. I didn't know what to do!  What I only know was that I have to study English.. To have enough English skills to enroll school, I went academy for 3 months.  It helped me a lot. The problems that Korean has is that they can't speak well with foreigner although they are good in vocabs and reading.(It doesn't meant that I was goods at vocabs and reading. Just normal Korean) And, I entered MITIS. I didn't know what to do at that time. Just what I could do was just listening, keeping quite. I could adapt new school environment thanks to kind teachers(???) and friends. Thank you guys!! 
     Nowadays.. As I wrote, I think I am getting more lazy and lazy. I don't concentrate school as I concentrated in 3rd quarter. As teacher mae said, I am trying to do what I did. But this is not easy.. I don't remember what I did! This is the problem.. But I will really try to do my best not to regret what I did ,in the future!

Pressure?

  Today is already Friday.. Time goes by but I don't know if it goes fast.. IT IS TOO FAST!!  W got report cards for 3th quarter which I took for the first time in the Philippines. I was quite nervous as I didn't know if there are low grades or not. Hopefully, The lowest grade was B!! but this is not good.. The reason is.. that Subject that I got B is  English!! As you know, English is what T.mae teaches for grade 9 and she is in charge of our grade. Namely, she is an advise teacher. I AM REALLY , SUPER DUPER SORRY FOR THIS SCORE.. I will try to get, get good score in this quarter exam! I am not familiar with INTERPRETING poem and FINDING deep meaning of essay or sentence.. I don't know how ti interpret these well. If you can, could you help me? 
   Nowadays, I think I am getting more lazy and lazy because of holy week vacation. I felt like It is okay to play with something until now. BUT, this is totally wrong. I had quiz for math 3? days ago. I didn't learn it even in Korea. So, I had to study hard but I didn't. Because I am lazy? um.. I don't know. So.. as you can expect, I got really, really low grade in that quiz.. This is really such an ashamed fault.. AND, I didn't know if there was social studies quiz or not.. I should have checked whiteboard. This is really ashamed fault as well. It means, I am not concentrate on my study! I know obviously that I am different compare on? in? before. I don't smile like before, I don't concentrate on school like before. I don't mean, I CAN'T. I DO NOT.. Just I feel like that. I don't know why, but maybe because of going process of adapting  new surrounding which uses ENGLISH. I thought this process of adapting this country, school would be not hard.. I overestimated me. I was boastful, yabang.. Taking this opportunity, I AM GOING TO STUDY HARDER than before.
   But, the problem is pressure that I have to do and be better than 3th quarter. I was quite surprised as I got quite? high grades contrary to my expectation. As I wrote, I got the lowest grade in English.. I quite expected that I would have low grade on it.. but I did't expect that it would be LOWEST grade.. OMG! I am not sure but maybe due to pressure, I cannot take it away from my mind.. I am afraid of disappearances of many teachers, my friends and my parents. Sometimes, I imagine them blaming me because of my lower grade of 4th quarter..  This is really bad situation, isn't this? uwe...  
    There are so many things that I don't know.. from Vocabs, even to speaking.  Sometimes, I can't talk with my friend using an English. I don't know why, but maybe I am embarrassed? But I will try to be familiar, and adapt to ENGLISH... I hope I will not forget about this.. To Future tony... 
PLEASE ! STUDY HARD!!

P to the ROM.

 When I logged in, I was surprised because the topic that I was supposed to write about is the same with Gino's ! I didn't intend.. but topic is the same with Gino.. I didn't mean, intend it Gino! Please, Don't misunderstand~!!! LOL 
   Prom.. It means graduation party. Before I came here, I respected having partner, many pretty girls and handsome guys..(except ME)  BUT! I don't mean that you guys are ugly!! I thought people who acted in movie... It was all Bullshit. I should not have imagined such a ... um.. fiction. Disappointment would big when expectation was big. I mean, I thought people who are 18~20 western people since I watched movie about American school, something like that. Here, In the Philippines, most of people graduate their school when they finish school schedule as a grade 10.
I didn't know about it.. Whatever, it's OKAY! coz.. there's no my ideal girl ㅠㅠ
  What are we going to do ? Literally, what are we going to do during the PROM... I heard that we usually dance with partner, eat some delicious foods, watching band playing.. but if only this situation happens, without any change, I think it will be boring.. There's no interesting thing that we? I can enjoy! Perhaps, watching girls? can be enjoying thing to some men.. like J... blahblah kkk JOKE! sorry if I offend you..  Some people said, they often go some where with friend to drink alcohols or go to noraebang ( what you call this ? karaoke?) after finishing the PROM. But, I don't think that our grade 9 friends will not do those thing because they are innocent! maybe?
  The problem of PROM.. COSTS of admission is too expensive to not rich student! For me, since I am poor? I think its cost is expensive though the other costs are P 5000. That doesn't make sense! To student, they require P 5000? 2500? oh.. It is more than my allowance.. my pocket money!  BUT the fortunate thing for me is that I can borrow suit from my house mate brother. He is little bit taller than me but he has less weight than me! Anyway, I appreciate for the circumstance to borrow it. I am surely know that I need suit for um,, something. but not now! I am a just kid? children yet and I am growing up now( I HOPE..) It might not be fit to me after a year!  But , I am not sure about my friends.. If they don't have anything, They have to buy suit, leather shoes,  neck tie, like that. AND, OUR PROBLEM is  we don't have partner LOL. Probably, some can come with their partner but I an sure most of us won't come with partner. I said WON'T not WON'T BE ABLE TO!

I feel concerning and expecting for Prom..

 There was prom on 1800s.

This week..

   This week is quite boring.. At first, last Friday, I thought 'This vacation will be really fun! um.. what do I do first? I can't decide it! ' like this.. and from last Friday to Tuesday, I enjoyed playing! but soon, It changed.. so I shall introduce what I have done.
     From Friday to Tuesday.. As you know, I am member of F.C Parañaque although I am not main member kk. We played soccer Saturday night at cuenca, and Sunday evening in Cavite.
I didn't play well... It motivated me to practice soccer harder than before. I played computer game and searched the Internet what you call, Todayhumor. I am using this website to kill boring time or meaningless time. Ah! Leo came my house last... I don't know kk but he came so I have one more brother to play with, include my brother, Simon. He's good ski player. He said, he is going to participate international competition. I hope he will do it well. Go back to the body, I went to academy where is nearby out school with him and my brother for 3 days. I didn't know that there was a girl, the same age with me. The other teachers said, she is going to enroll San Beda(?). As well, I did't know that there were quite many students include girls! LOL I hope among them, there will be my ideal girl kkk. Anyway, After finishing the academy schedule, we played soccer in cuenca. I taught Leo playing soccer. I think he haven't played soccer before.. but he learned it quite fast... NOTICE that I am not good at soccer. Just I taught how to receive, kick, pass the ball... NOT professionally!  Because he played ski, his leg strength is strong. but the problem is he doesn't know how to control. I practiced kicking the ball as well, but still, I am not good... 
      From Thursday to Now, Saturday. It became boring after Thursday. I did't have things to do.. Of course, there were projects to do.. BUT I didn't want to do it because this week is holy week! one week vacation! So, I finished social studies module assignment, and science project which bothered me sincerely!!! Except that, I didn't have anything to do.. Just sleeping, searching todayhumor(just regard it as korean version of 9GAG but there is difference.), and playing the guitar(suck kkk). I was not able to play soccer because the weather was jolly hot!! too hot!! my skin color became black.. thanks to kind sunlight!! I think the season became summer.. Its sunlight is definitely different compare to past sunlight. And TODAY, I was supposed to play soccer with F.C Parañaque but it is canceled.. but it's okay! me and my brother played it when sunset was going on.

Ah., before play soccer, me, my brother and Leo went to festival mall, and ATC to look for.. what you call this?? functional clothes? which can absorb, dry sweat. It helps me to play soccer comfortably. Nike and Adidas are in my mind.. I can't select it easily. I mean, about shorts! Two of those are really comfortable when I wore those.  um.. So I am going to try them again tomorrow. 

      These are what I did until now. But I don't want this time to go fast! I don't want to study! but play and talk with my friends ㅠㅠ.. I am afraid of having class LOL

What the??

  you know whay?? Today is already....THURSDAY!!!!!!! OH MY GOD... I don't remember what I did.. except playing soccer and.. and... um... sleeping? oh.. What had I done? Though there was no what I did, there are many what I have to do. Social studies project, Chinese(madarin?) project, and English project.. At least, the good thing is that I finished science project scarcely.. It cramped my brain. I had to write about what I DID'T LEARN! so I use power of Internet but I did't do plagiarism! never ever! and.. social studies module assignment..  It is okay but what about project??? I know that I am in charge of leader.. but I DON'T HAVE ABILITY as a leader. However, How can I change it now? I am a leader already.. I will just do my best... Whatever!! I have lots of thing to do..
    First! Social studies project.. I am in a group 3. Our members are me, Yushine, Yannica, Monnica, Tom, and Lexie(? I am not sure about spelling kk).  It is not bad !! and I decided what each member have to write.. For example, Yannica and Monnica has the best English skills from grammar to writing. So, I will give them role of writing hard(?) news(Serious news.. which is about fact.) BUT!! the important thing is.. we don't have opportunity to meet each other.. I have a paper and tried to take a picture of it.. but its definition is suck! um... so... I will talk to them on next Tuesday ㅠㅠㅠ
   Second! English project!  I have to make a portfolio using computer. I have to decorate it and write contents using computer. Writing doesn't matter although my writing skill is not good...  Real problem is .. I don't know how to decorate using computer! Even, It is not power point.. so.. I am thinking asking for help to teacher Llye who is very kind!!  I hope he will accept with favor..  without paying the money!! Joklang kkk
      In some ways, I am bored sometimes. There's no specific thing to do unless I don't play soccer or sleep. I want to meet friend and talk with them without studying.. but they live far from my house!  and I CAN NOT PLAY SOCCER BECAUSE IT IS REALLY HOT!!! I played soccer yesterday. It wasn't hot( I think..)  I played it around from 4 to 6 PM. I was surprised when I saw my face while I was washing my face. It turned black!! It tanned too much.. so I can't play soccer like before! I am afraid of being black! Actually, I was quite having a white skin before I learned soccer. After learning and playing soccer with my friends, my skin color became super black compare to original skin color..      
       I finish this post with concern about what I am going to do tomorrow.